You told me
I can become anything
all I need is to believe
but I never grew wings
and when I fell down
it was you that found me
told me I am nothing
always trying to become
everything you wanted
lost hold of all that I am
Hollowed it out for you
eviscerated soul still bleeding
and not enough for you
never quite what you hoped
not realizing your dreams
diagnosis and condemnation
judgement before I arrived
and never allowed more
this mask I wear for you
can longer be removed
permanently disappointing you
cutting deep
melting into flesh
blurred edges
I gave you everything
you said I was essential
now broken and empty
you've forgotten
I never will
Tag: pain
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There is a hollow place
that was once filled with love
but I gave it all away
and got nothing back
draining it all out onto the floor
like bleeding a dying animal
but I remain
with this still beating heart
gasping for air
and waiting
my brain not ready to give up
clinging to life
one agonal breath after another
but still coming up empty
Pinky Toe Spacers
Hello Dazzle! Thanks for coming and hanging out with me today, I’m glad that you are here. Today I want to give a product review for the pinky toe spacers that I tried out. First, I wanted to explain the problem that I was trying to fix. My pinky toes are crooked and they sit underneath the adjacent toe which causes a great deal of pressure on both toes when ever I walk. This is a source of chronic foot pain for me. I was hoping that a spacer would hold the punky toe over and prevent it from being walked on.
Continue reading “Pinky Toe Spacers”I’ve Been Struggling
Hello Dazzle! Thanks for coming and hanging out with me today, I’m glad that you are here. Today I want to talk about how I’ve been and how things have been going for me. It is all too easy to filter our social media to include only the sunshine and rainbows, but I feel like this is a disservice to everyone. So, today I want to talk about how I have been struggling.
Continue reading “I’ve Been Struggling”Loving a Broken Body
Hello Dazzle! Thanks for coming and hanging out with me today, I’m glad that you are here. Today I want to talk about how I reached a point of acceptance and love for my body that doesn’t work the way that it is supposed to. The first thing that I want to say is that I understand there are many people that take offense to the idea of a person with disability or chronic illness having a broken body. I am not talking about their body. I am speaking only about my body and my personal experience.
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Death Changes Everything
Hello Dazzle! Thanks for coming and hanging out with me today, I’m glad that you are here. Today I want to talk to you about death. I am aware that this is a difficult topic for many, but it is because of those emotional difficulties that I think we should be talking about death and dying more. Because death changes everything. Our own deaths only impact us in their anticipation. The deaths of strangers, loved ones and acquaintances will likely be events that all of us have to deal with at some point in our lives. Living when these people have died will change us.
Continue reading “Death Changes Everything”The Vriksasana Sacroiliac Hip Belt: A Review
Hello Dazzle! Thanks for coming and hanging out with me today, I’m glad that you are here. If you’re struggling with lower back pain, you might be interested in exploring the Vriksasana sacroiliac hip belt. This belt is designed to stabilize the sacroiliac joint, which can be a source of pain for many people. In this article, I’m going to take a look at what the Vriksasana belt is, how it works, and let you know what I think about it.
The Vriksasana Sacroiliac Hip Belt
Continue reading “The Vriksasana Sacroiliac Hip Belt: A Review”Kindness
Ourselves
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